So I’m definitely an introvert. I have the hardest time telling people things about myself and opening up…and I don’t mean that I’m shy. I mean that I feel like there is a physical barrier that I have to consciously choose to overcome in order to tell people about the things going on in my life. For example: I recently moved from Birmingham to Oklahoma and there were a lot of things going on, causing me stress, etc etc, that led to this move, and yet I waited until I knew there was no putting it off any longer to tell my family..I waited two months to tell one of my best friends, and I still haven’t told all of my good friends. I did the same thing when I was in college…I bought a car, but didn’t tell any of my friends. Not because I didn’t want them to know, but because I couldn’t seem to scale that wall in my mind that will allow me to release things. I honestly feel that there is something physical that holds me back from telling people about things going on in my life. I can force myself to do it by logical reasoning that tells me I MUST tell people, that they deserve to know, but I have to actually talk to myself and convince myself to do it. I’m fairly certain that there is more going on than simple introvercy (yes, I made that word up), and I want to overcome it, but I really don’t know how. Lately, I can tell it’s dragging me down, but I’ve always been this way, I’m just now starting to think it’s an “issue”…professional help maybe? One of my best friends has a PhD in psychology…maybe he can help??? 🙂
Anyway, that’s the sum of my recently acknowledged problems.